Teajo

Been so Busy

2005-09-10T11:20:00.000+08:00

I have been so busy that didn't come in and write for a long time... think must try to restart my writing habit again... and also to learn more function under this blogger so that I can do more stuff....

Long long Time

2005-08-23T01:11:00.000+08:00

wah I long time never come in to write already....

alot of things
my dearest god-sis is now in Melbourne studying...
I am working almost everyday good thank God for all the jobs that are coming in...

something to read on

God is on our team 22 August

When I was helpless, He saved me. Psalm 1166

As youngsters, we neighborhood kids would play street football. The minute we got home from school we’d drop the books and hit the pavement. The kids across the street had a dad with a great arm and a strong addiction to football. As soon as he’d pull in the driveway from work we’d start yelling for him to come and play ball. He couldn’t resist. Out of fairness he’s always ask, “which team is losing?” Then he would join that team, which often seemed to be mine.

His appearance in the huddle changed the whole ball game. He was confident, strong, and most of all, he had a plan. We’d circle around him, and he’d look at us and say, “Ok boys, here is what are going to do.” The other side was groaning before we left the huddle. You see, we not only had a new plan, we had a new leader.

He brought new life to our team. God does precisely the same. We didn’t need a new play; we needed a new plan. We didn’t need to trade positions; we needed a new player. That player is Jesus Christ, God’s firstborn Son.

Jun 11

2005-06-12T00:11:00.000+08:00

kekekeeee.... Have not been coming in for quite awhile... still trying to fit some on my laptop problems... and also trying to get my phone to be connected to my lapy...

been resting for the past week and wow great.... got chance to think about how bad I hav ben treating my friends.... no calls no sms not even a single hello to all my close friends.. wah lau... total slacker....

think never been a good friend to anyone before... slack and do my own stuff.... didn't even bother to find out how are my close friends.... only things that I am doing is work and home.... even weekends are usually with my parents...

10 May

2005-05-10T13:58:00.000+08:00

wah have not write for awhile...

today got a call from a friend... when she realised that her JC senior is my cousin... she is in a state of shock.... wah haha

it's a small world after all

A Gathering

2005-04-24T04:37:00.000+08:00

Was at East Coast Park last night for a gathering.... I was 1st not very comfortable as I have never gone for any of this gathering for a while... went as my god brother called...

I saw about 1/8 of my secondary schoolmate.. My goodness some of them is already in different phrase of life.... some have got married, some even have children... WOW....

I wasn't comfortable as I hate this gathering where everyone is still putting on their mask and nothing else...But to my surprise... it is just like the previous gathering with them.. they are still real and real... they are not struck up... they are not wearing any mask... it has been a long time that I have not been to such a gathering...

everyone has changed.... but still they are very real... I am thankful to God that I still have this group of friends....

Another lazing day

2005-04-21T16:58:00.000+08:00

for the past whole week have been resting at home.... it feels so good to have a chance to rest.... after a long long week of work... I was able to rest and yesterday did a show for Ju's company... Just do some hair styling... I am happy not bcos I was earning money but bcoz I was able to enjoy my job.... even with the little amount of money coming in.... but I am able to enjoy life, keep my parents companied... and also able to do what I want to do... able to plan my life... and not just working and working through my life... spending time planning what I should do and not wasting time....

maybe when people look at my life, they might think I am not being productive... but having the time to reflect upon life upon the time I can spend with my parents I think is my current motive... life may never give me another chance to spend time with my old folks... and don't want that to happen... some might think it is plain excuse... we need to work hard and earn enough for provision but when will enough be enough.... humans don't know what is enough.... earn the 1st ten thousand then they move on to the next ten thousand and so on... there is never enough...

I do strive for living. I do strive for money... but guess at each point of life we all have different aspect of how to run life.... I could join the group of work politics or even be a bitch to try kick people out of their job but what next?? maybe I will experience the same fate as to what had been done to others... Just like Bryant said to me before 'skills is also on improving, life continue even if it sucks, when creatic comes recieve and digest'

I may not be a best skilled makeup artist but improvement is constantly needed... no one works the same way... acknowlegdement of bad skill does not mean that U will be broken down but giving U a chance to improve.... I believe all the famous people strive hard for their current position and I also believe their life is filled with constant improvement and also humbleness....

3:47 AM on 13 Apr 05

2005-04-13T03:47:00.000+08:00

I just reach home at 3AM after the bridal shoot that was going on.... everything was just so prefect. I hope I can get the pictures for my portfolio... very nicely done... I love it alot...

better sleep fast got another shoot happening today at 3PM... Good Nite God, Good nite everyone

12 Apr 05

2005-04-12T13:53:00.000+08:00

Hurray... I am planning my next trip... this time going somewhere near... going Bangkok... going to shop... planning this trip with Elaine... both doing our part to look for hotel and flight... this is fantastic.... once all the planning is set.... have to ensure that have enough pocket money to go.... hey so happy...

Tonight got a interesting night shoot.... happeing from 5pm to 1am.... yah.... a bridal shoot that wants to be created like the movie in the mood of love 2046. Hope everything goes fine

Rainy Day

2005-04-04T19:28:00.000+08:00

good weather.... started raining since last night....

Went to pay respect to my brother 2day... at times... I wondered how could I get away from all the rituals of the chinese traditions.... under my shoes... I just wanted to be filial to my parents... handling the joss stick and praying for my brother... but at times, I would think am I setting a good record before God... I very much wants to be a filial child but alot of times... things are not being in my control.... I could only ask for God's forgiveness and for Him to know that I am just setting my parents at easy....

every single time and I step into that place... memories just float in... see my brother lying on the floor, blood flowing out from his head... seeing how his friends come and see him lying in the coffin... seeing my dad teared... memories of that incident just float on and on... even at times when I am at home.... there is just too much in this house that leaves memories off my brother....

Just like Billy (my cousin) said to me after my brother's funeral... everything will fade even husband and wife relationship but born as siblings will alway be siblings... this stay with me... I could never replace my brother with a friend... coz a friend can never take my brother's place. Just like how my dad feels... he is always his son... I don't blame him for taking his life away but just cannot bear to see my dad grief through the rest of his life....

28 Mar 05 - 3 Apr 05

2005-04-03T23:00:00.000+08:00

3 Apr 05
wah... 2day did nothing at home.... Nana called.... 4got to go her place... it is her daughter's full mth celebration... oopss.... so pai say... room in a mess clean up my room so that I can do my work... like it when everything is packed and cleaned... 2molor is a brand new day.... was looking at my daily bread... in it stated 'who has an answer for the diseases, drudgeries, and darkness of thie life? I don't. But we do know this. Everything changes when you look at your groom-Jesus Christ.' U may not believe in Jesus but in life there must be a God that U look up to... For me I look up to Jesus... at times when I felt lost and down I look up to Him and every other thing just fade away.... there might be so many things that we block into our mind and everyday we drag on the weight that we carried... sometimes everything seems just so unclear but (in my life) Jesus clear out them and bring in new life in me....

2 Apr 05
2day is my mum's birthday.... I stoned at home.... wanted to bring her out for dinner but my dad was busy as he did somethings on in the evening.... thought about how I have been conducting my life for the pass 3 months... think I have alot of things to change... of course 1st of all my size... kekekkeee... then will have to start evalute my skills and improve on them....

1 Apr 05
weh.... so fast is ia coming to 1st half quater of the year.... whole day did nothing much....work from 2pm in the afternoon....

31 Mar 05
my Bro is out-station on job.... to vietnam.... dun know how long.... having dinner with my ex boss and a colleuge tonite....

Wow... The dinner was wonderful.... never really have a chance to know my ex boss... She is a nice lady... really nice.... had a great time together with Joan Toh as well...

30 Mar 05
I got block out of my blog.... went KTV and then met cassandra to collect my stuff from her... She ike my cane bag... think got to go get one for her.... discuss about Wella's job.... cool looks.... I like... hope I can get one pic and put on my blog....

29 Mar 05
wah pengz!!today 1st day of work after holiday.... late.... kekekkeee forot to bring IC out.... come home to grab my Ic... call cab... 'sweat' like mad... aiyo... I miss Japan's Spring.... thank God only late for 5 mins.... not much things in TCS today.... 1dt time sat in hua kor's car... fast rider..I also found out that Mayday will be performing in the charity show... pengz.. I am going to miss them again... won't be able to work on that day.... after work... just step out of the gate... my percious shoe got tore.... wah pengz.... thank God for everything... got a cab and come home st.

28 Mar 05
Wah Pengs.... I woke up at about 11:50am... kekkeee.e..... thank God for His favour on me... got calls for jobs... TCS called... as well as Cassandra called.... really thank God for all the favour... I must strive more... so that I might be able to go for trip again... I miss the weather in Japan... kkekekeee....O nearly forgot.... In Japan... we walk walk and walk all the time... makes me realised that how come they are so slim.... they not only walk all the time... but they like to run so that the will not miss the train.... even though the trian come almost every 2 minute..I dun know why... even if they are in the USJ or Disney land ane Sea they run all the time.... kakkakakekekkekee.... funny but true... no wonder they are all very small sizes...

My Japan trip

2005-03-28T14:18:00.000+08:00

27 Mar 05
suppose to wake up at 4:30am but only woke up at 5:15am... thank God all our stuff was pack last night... and then we check out of the hotel... and went to catch the train at asakusa.... the 1st time in the entire trip that we all perspired.... hahahhaaa.... got into the wrong station entrance so went to look for the correct entrance.... got to Ueno at about 6:30am was trying to get seats for the 6:30am train from Ueno to Narita airport but couldn't get.... then we went for the 7:01am express train... reach the airport at 7:58am... check-in and did some last min shopping at the air port... in the plane watch shall we dance again, and the incredible and closer.... I like Japan... if given another chance to go... I would... it is good for me as since i got a good rest from work... it is time to head on again for my work.... I enjoy my trip and most important of all I got to know more about Elaine... She is a medium version of me... and I am a extra large version of her... it is so incredible that the both of us can tick well even when our moods and temperment are the same... it is rather hard to find someone who thinks like you do... and I am very glad that God has given me this little sister.... and also given me a chance to reflect again that in life we all need to learn how to compliament than compete with one another... We need to learn to accept people the way their are changing ourselves to be better not so that we broost of our own strength but to encourage each other.... give and take... but not give and give or take and take... Overall I could only say I am glad for what God has done in my life... although at times I maybe a crazy girl or even a navie one but what really matters is that we have been true to ourselves and people around us...

26 Mar 05
wokeup abit more late... we went to uneo 1st to see whether Sakura had blossm... went for all the last min shopping and also went shinbuya 109 building to see all the 'lah mei' wah really 'lah' we then went back to Ueno market and had some last min shopping there... went back to 'le men' to look for some gift but didn't brought any and then went back to hotel for rest... come out about 7:30pm for dinner... went into a resturant which all agreed was the worst food that we had in Japan... that was the only meal that we walk out not satisfied... we went to the 7-eleven to get cup noodles it was that bad and that not filling.... watch 'white out' back at the hotel... quite a nice show with the hero saving everyone and didn't die.... :@

25 Mar 05 (temperature 11 degrees)
We went to the fish market earlier in the morning.... my eyes drop... even some of the fish mongers are good-looking chap... O my goodness.... then we walk across this place where the sell knife, not surprise, there was this guy who was sharpening the knife in his shop... and yes another nice good looking chap... O my Goodness.... had breakfast at one of the stall there and the fish are all fresh and sweet.... afterwhich, we went to Tokyo DisneySea. We were waiting for KT at the main entrance after entering into DisneySea... Out of panick... KT wouldn't find us and when he saw us... he rise his voice, thinking we had walk away... our guide got panick when he couldn't find us when all the time we were sitting right infront of him... we went completely silent for awhile... like we, Elaine and myself, said... when fear happens our temper will rise... we could practicially understand, he was fear that we might have got lost... most important, he fear that Selina might be in danger... My 1st time seeing a guy panick cos he couldn't find his girlfriend... :) In DisneySea the rides are even more better than DisneyLand... I personally like the Indiana Jones ride(went twice), the center of the earth ride(went twice) and the storm rider... cool... the shows were very good and well done... BraviSEAmo where they combine fire and water.... and the Disney Maguc in the Sky (fireworks).... unforgetable... good memories....

24 Mar 05
Went to Tokyo Disneyland..... couldn't finish all the rides as almost all the rides need you to Q for more than a hour... but thanks to all the fast pass... we could get the more nice rides with out having to wait for all long time... I personly prefers the Splash mountian... we were riding together with this mother and her 3 yrs old son, ken if I remember correctly, he was so cool... when we come down from the water fall... ken just sat there quietly and lloking as though nothing hapen... cool man!!!! brave little kid and elaine got over the fear of drop from a high point... the feeling is just amazing.... it is even better that riding pirate ship.... and the other recommended ride is big thunder mountain... there elaine saw a guy that was very handsome and tall... wow indeed he is very handsome and tall.... we had fun throughout the whole journey.... we watch the disney dream on parade... was a nice one... at night we watch the disney light on parade... beside us was a bunch of mid-20s ladies screaming at mickey went he come out on the lighted car... could catch the fireworks... as it was raining...

23 Mar 05
went around shopping and was on a nice and easy trip.... nothing much happen.... just only focus our eyes on pretty girls, cute little kids and handsome, good looking chaps... in Singapore, I always walk with my head down eye looking on the floor but there... my head was always up and eyes focusing on handsome guys... hahahahahaaa.... dinner was sabu sabu and sukiyaki.... Wow Awesome... best sabu sabu and sukiyaki.... very good with all the different sauce that they have... I tried the one with raw egg... I tell U even if you don't like raw egg (like me) you would love the taste and feeling of the beef with raw egg going down Ur throat.... satisfied.... that is the word to use.

22 Mar 05
earlier morning went to the 'Le Men' at Asakusa... Selina and boyfriend went in to pray... Elaine and me went around taking picture and shop... I brought a bag for my aunt(ended up in my mum's hand... :P) Elaine brought lot of rice-cracker and tabits... Oah... could only say even the trishaw riders was young and goodlooking chap.... my goodness... we went to Ueno to check out on the Sakura... only like about 2 or 3 of the trees are blossming with sakura the rest are botak.... went to their so called pasamalan... even the stall keepers are good-looking young chap.... we then head over to the biggest IT place in Tokyo... Wow pack with alot most new stuff and high tech equpiments... we also went to their sex shop... wow eye openner... their sex shop is about 5 or 6 level... wow... all the stuff in there... wah pengsz.... they even sell prono vcd there... wah pengs.... that was like wow man!!! crazy.... we went to the 3rd level and then that's it... no more... had dinner near our hotel... and head back to rest.....

21 Mar 05
we head on the tokyo in the morning. On our way, we went to Nara a small town where the 1st empire of Japan was stated. althought now the places is no longer there but the place is nice... reach tokyo at about 2 plus (took the shinkaisen, bullet trian, costing about SGD 200 plus)... we went to quite a few places... went to the ferry wheel place near shinjuku, japan's biggest TV network building, and shinjuku itself... we also went to the place that I long to visit... Tokyo Tower.... Wow.... almost like paris tower and the cost to go up to the tallest places was about 2000 Yen... Wow.... expense man!!!! Our hotel was at Asakusa very quite at nite as it is near at the business district around.... went for dinner nearby... and the food taste good....

20 Mar 05
woke up quite earlier. went for breakfast, Yoshinoya there taste different from Singapore's one. We went to Universal Studio Japan.... Fun... exciting.... and wow all the nice looking and handsome guys.... my eye balls nearly drop to the ground.... the rides are fun would recommend to go for the Spiderman ride, back to the future ride and the best of all Jurassic park ride.... the most funny thing that I see there.... everyone run for the rides... and almost every girl that walk past me have had makeup on and wearing short mini skirts.... extreme man.... that days was only about 10 degrees and can U image??? short skirts.... after all the excitment, my head started to spin and headache came... thank God I could still enjoy the firework display very good... our firework display can not compare to theirs....

19 March 05
We reach Osaka about 8 plus in the morning. my very 1st time in Japan. We step out of the airport and the 1st impression was I love the weather. I totally love the weather. We went to the Hotel at Namba. Could only check in about 2pm in the afternoon. the degree outdoor was only 11 degrees. I love the weather... we lock our bags into the hotel lockers and we went for a long stroll. Walked around Namba went to one of their shire near Osaka. took a long walk and saw the nice blossming 'mei hua'...along the way to Osaka, went around looking for cheap nice food... Nice place and I was very amazed, the guys and girls there are verywell dressed... almost all of the guys there are very good looking.... O gosh.... went for the ferry wheel ride in Osaka town.... great view... gosh the weather is so good.... 1st experience of the entrancing into the trians, shopping malls, hotels and resturants feeling warm air and the outside weather is 11 degrees... great feeling... at home U long for the air-con indoor but in japan during spring U long for the warm air indoor.... hahahhaaa.... went to the nite market at Namba.... one word 'WOW' their packaging, the shop front look and the people there all very nice and look good.... the food there is so different from the japanese food that we eat in Singapore.

18 March 2005
10pm, as I step out of my house door, it is my 1st holiday of the year. My japan trip! reach the airport about 11pm and then had coffee with Elaine, Selina, KT(Selina's boyfriend) and KT parents. It is a new beginning for me. I long for this trip for since Chinese New Year. I am very excited as well as very much wanted to know more about Elaine, my little baby sister-in-christ. I was antipating to spend more time with this little sister of mine and hoping to get a chance to know her even more better. I do treasure our friendship alot. We board the plane about 12pm, could sleep. Watch the movie 'Shall We Dance?' twice. Richard Gere is incredile.

14 Feb 2004

2005-02-14T00:42:00.000+08:00

Wow so fast Chinese New Year had just passed. As usual, life is still in shape....
Was watching two concert of Mayday , where are you going and re-union concert. Suddenly thoughts rush into my brain while listening to they songs...

A year ago, I was in trouble of where I should head my life. Should my life be constantly directed by others (like parents e.g.) and where should I go.... should my life be filled with anymous people who doesn't even stay or should I place my feeling on a man who doesn't even like me.... I realised my life was not always manipulated by others but I was the one who gave them the authority to manipulate my life. 'wow so stupid' yup yup that would be what others would say... well, even I myself would say that....

My last relationship was a total forge to me now.... I loved someone who don't even have any feelings for me... my emotion was put on someone who cannot even give me a single comfort... my dreams of setting up a family was totally destroy. I only could blame myself for my being clear to see what was coming.... I only hate myself for doing something like this.... to others people might not take it that it is real but to me... I was true to my feelings... I step on a path which wasn't a path for me but through it all I was true to all my feelings... I am just a selfish little girl trying to get some love in this world.... I never did once regret of my love for that person... and in the end... I think it would be just freedom to give to someone you love.... life is filled with all colours.... the path that one chose maybe wrong but the colours that was and is and going to be put onto the path is by yourself... no one else can put them for you.... live life with no regrets....

There is nothing more to say then being true to yourself... I may not be the most prettiest babe in school or work place but I am true to myself.... I guess that is what really matters.... giving up only shows that we don't have the courage to move on in life and surely so I don't have to courage to move on in life as I don't know what is ahead of me... but what I do know is that God has given me His courage to take me on the path and He is carrying me all the way through.... my love may be conditional and His love is not... my heart may be selfish at times but His heart is always selfless.... my desire may be filled with own contentment but His desire is filled with His people.... I am only a little girl learning to crawl in circle.

I wish all that see my blog... Happy Valentine's Day!!!!

1st 2 week into the new year.....

2005-01-13T01:19:00.000+08:00

WOW WoW.... it is new year's time... been like so fast that Christmas passed... then the arrival of the new year.... started the year well.... was involved with the Children worship ministry therefore stared the year worshipping the Lord... I think I would love to continue do that... :)

Been doing quite abit of stuff starting my jobs slow but seems like everyday of the week will be packed again....

been told by one of my best friend (Sheily)... I become more and more busy and had no time to meet up with her... kekekekeee.... friends will always be friends.... no matter how far or near you are... kekekkeeee...

I am going Japan... YEAH!!!! going Japan.... yup yup.... going in March but everything has been settled... therefore got to earn more and more so that I can go there and enjoy my trip... going with my little sister (Elaine).... Wow....

11 Jan 2005
went into TVS.... I look like some mountain tortise never see stars before.... was like 'Wow... Wah...' at every famous TCS star that walk pass me... got a chance to do some stars and I really thank God for the chance...had the main makeup artist from TCS called... to ask whether would I want to do part time.... hopefully I can go in there and do more... so that I can prick up more skills from the senior artist and stylist

12 Jan 2005
today the sun is scrotching hot... I got my hands burn from doing outdoor shoot .... ai... rather itchy though

13 Jan 2005
another outdoor shoot... so warm but thank God was by a swimming pool and it was rather windy there.... I think I am going crazy everytime when I and with Ivan, Hair Stylist, (my good friend) the two of us will talk non-stop and everytime will have kangfu.... hahahhaaa.... we like to be kangfu fighter.... now I got a new nickname... call 'Xiao Pang' (mandarin) 'little fatty' (English).... :@

Evening time went to do farrgano's show at Rita Carlton... was early so went for tea with Bryant (Makeup Artist, another of my good friend) had the fresh fruit with chocolate at coffee club at Taka.... wow... nice nice.... yummy... at the show... meet the germany male model... how continuously kept saying that he want me to marry him on our last job... and he continue with that.... and tried to kiss me infront of everyone.... my goodness... abit scary... but come to think about it.... if there is someone who kept trying to do that to you I think most girl will get crazy over the guy.... kekekkekeee.... Phew... as for me... I dun want to be another Sarong Party Girl.... dun like that kind of life... and dun think he was serious.... but also found out he is going home home... (to germany) think he is going to come back in about 1 or 2 months time... by then hope he will find his true love (MAYBE)......

14 Jan
2day's my off day... seat at home to finish my magic ring series from taiwan... I think I really really hope to go taiwan.... thinking of going there to see the market.... hopefully I can stay there for awhile then I would want to get into the market there... really hope I can do that before I turn 30. if not everything will slow down for me.... :) but life still continue.... so let do it (NIKE).... kekkekeke

15 Jan
Was at Scotts Shopping Centre the entire afternoon doing Gamour Quest.... under T Leclerc... was walking to scotts I saw Stone (From Mayday) walking towards hyatt or Far East tht side.... Wow... the Last time round When I saw Mayday member was when they first come to Singapore.... that was like 1999/2000 Wow pengz.... so long ago... was wanting to ask him for for autograph but then realised that I didn't even have a pen with me... Shit...

16 Jan
Made pizza... nice nice.... went KTV with Elaine then when to buy the disc repair thingy.... it really works... Yes... I come watch my The Rose DVD without having to fear that it will 'jump' chapter again... great....

Dec 2004

2004-12-06T15:39:00.000+08:00

3 Dec
Did the Female Magazine 50 most geogorous people... and the winner is a Model for the lady side.... well, saw a few model in there some from Elite some for mannquien and also carrie models..... sighz... when ppl enjoying me working....

4 Dec
Went out with elaine to show the Increibiles.... Wow pengs.... went around town in the end still returns to Yishun to watch...... :P

5 Dec
Went to do a favour for Cheryl.... Did Singapore Idol for some event that they are going to... cool kids.... Didn't talk much as I was concentrating on what I was doing on Orlinda's face... but overall cute kids.... (I am a decade older than them... kekekkekeke)

15 Nov to 21 Nov

2004-11-20T07:31:00.000+08:00

19 Nov
running a fever of 37.7 degree this morning.... started praying and place a cold towel over my forehead and took alot of water..... when to see a doctor just now... at least this morning the temperature of alright.... later going to help Cheryl to do a hairstyle for one of her client... hope don't need too much effort.

18 Nov
went down to get some stock since I am free.... thought would be good.... since I got the time.... spent about $100 on them.... brought myself two new hat.... kkekekkeee.... look kind of cute... ;P my cousin come over

17 Nov
today finish 2 editorial for Maxim..... wow wow.... saw Pauline... and started chatting about her perious work place.... and also found out.... my 1st work for Maxim was not credited to my name.... wah pengz.... but okie lah... since pauline is there and she is helping me to keep a copy... as long as I have one copy can liao.... :P Sock called.... told me about 18 Dec concert.... but think I am going to watch instead.... not able to join in.... cos following 2 sat's am all pack with stuff... it is like only a month away from the event.... sock also gave me some ideas about how should I market myself.... I thank God for every single person that is and was in my life as they have make my life so beautiful... and also thank God for His Love never ends....

16 Nov
went for dance practise we finish another song liao.... so good... thursday will be doing a new song... hurray... so exciting...

15 Nov
went for CG.... thank God for all these sisters... they make my life so filled.... Sock's mum is a great cook... I alway like her soup...even though only had them for like once..... wow.... great man.... of cos my mum cook well too but there is alway a higher mountain.... right right... kekkekeee..... shared with the group of how I felt this few months... and really thankful for God's planning in my life.... without them I wouldn't have done Arise.... and with them... I felt belong... I guess ultimately... we all want to belong to somewhere... spiritually, we belong to God... pyhsically, we find places... where we feel most comfortable to belong to....

8 Nov to 14 Nov

2004-11-08T17:54:00.000+08:00

8 Nov

I feel like a idiot.... got tis big company ask me to do a makeup for photo shoot for them... and til now 2 months plus... have not pay me yet.... stupid man!!!!! for just a small amount they drag for so long.... like idiots....

This week very relax.... did two editorial for newspaper... and then 1 ROM and one fashion show for Tianpo jewellery..... kekkekekkee very very relax.....

went fr service on Sunday.... what a refreshing time for me.... gave me to hmmm to continue my life...

1 Nov to 7 Nov

2004-11-07T21:41:00.000+08:00

This entire week is a tiring week... work from 12pm to 8pm everyday.... tired..... doing a road show at Wisma Atria..... fun and ok but sat and sun are a long standing day.... I have to stand from 11am to 6pm tiring.... but thank God.... the entire group are fun loving and wonderful group..... I will survive... hahahhahaa :)

finally, the whole entire road show is over.... went to watch Bryant and Cabbi do a test shoot for Ju... fun and very very creative.... hope that one day I can be like Bryant.... did such a good job....

October

2004-10-17T23:25:00.000+08:00

wow.... almost a month never come in here.... so so busy..... :P
:) alot of things to do and also very tired from work.... so sianz.... everyday having to rush here and there

30 Aug to 4 Sept 2004

2004-09-01T14:33:00.000+08:00

30 Aug
got a dinner treat from Guerlain's manager.... nice dinner at Mirammar Hotel.... afterwhich walk to Clrak Quay with Cassandra, Belle and Hui Hui.... fun.... :P

16 Aug to 29 Aug

2004-08-28T13:47:00.000+08:00

this full two weeks has been a fulfilling and interesting but also tiring week for me...

on 18 Aug went to meet to people from Guerlain as we were doing the fashion week show under them. Met the Chief Makeup Artist, Wilson. Good makeup artist.....

20 Aug
First show for the Fashion Week.... went to Hairtage.... met Ivan, my hairstylist. the models was late for 1 and half hours.... and when they came... they was like one big group of them.... scary... but as usual.... 2nd show was down at Chijmes even worst.... at Hairtage we still can have a place given to us for makeup at Chijmes we were squeenching with the Hair stylists, from Toni and guy, and also the models.... so jam.... can image how to survive like that..... sighz..... thank God, even though the space waas small but we get along well with the hair stylist as well as the models.... so that mades it better.... met some of the models that we saw on 7 Aug for JPG show.... fun...

21 Aug
work starts at 9am in the morning .... today we have got 4 shows.... each show with 12 models.... dead duck shit.... at Chijmes some more... lunch was just pushing a burger down our throat.... sighz.... by the end of the second show all of us was like tired out.... I personally like the third show the best..... I was watching the third show... took a few pictures.... and amazing.... one of the model, sunny, wore this very japanese and chinese evening gown for bridal.... combination of red and gold.... everyone stop breathing went she went on.... WAH..... that was the best...... all of us stay until 9pm.... wah pengz... it is a 12 hours show... can image??? from morning stand all the way until late evenng.... aiyo.... my poor leg......

22 Aug
was to start work at 3pm but Wilson called and said they gave us the wrong time... the actual call time is 2pm everyone of us rush until like crazy.... due to the rush of time... I was very upset as they were pushing us to finish fast.... I scolded 2 models.... for wasting my time... :P was abit bad.... but afterwards went to apologise to them... and explain why I did that....

23 Aug
work started at 2pm... was abit better than the day before.... thank God everything went smooth...

25 Aug
working non-stop... finially, the end... last day... today is for the Fashion Awards..... not as bad as before..... the makeup Artist of the year is Wilson Eng.... who was working with us for the past week... he is the winner for two years already....

26 Aug
at Zouk for Luxasia shampoo show... saw Michelle Chia... very pretty.... and saw marjay... one of my favourite models whom was working with us for the past few days.... cool

27 Aug
woke up at 1pm....good sleep... going to met the gang who was working with me for the past one week.... Belle, Cassandra and Hui Hui... might also meet up with our Trainer Lilian.... great week.... got another show to do 2molor... JPG show at Mennia Walk... very fruitful two weeks....

28 Aug
Dorathy Jie came over, went to granny's house to pass Jie the last two set of the Rose series.... SHE's Elle was really good in the series.... Went for the JPG Male looks contest... wah pengz.... some of the guys all very vainpot even worst than me and cassandra.... aiyo.... so cute.... the winner of the contest was someone with the height goods fairly ok.... Hui Hui came over and help me.... here and there.... so cute... this little Hamtaro....

29 Aug
last night chat with Cassandra until quite late... morning call from Cassandra at 1pm kekkekeee.... asking me whether want to go check out the computer fair or not.... so we went... then met up with Hui Hui at Suntec.... then met Belle.... and the four of us went shopping together.... it is fun to be with them....

9 Aug to 15 Aug

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9 Aug

Suppose to go watch the National day parade together with Jamie but I was having headache therfore didn't go... missed.... :(

10 Aug

Busy day in the office... but fun day too....

11 Aug

Counting down to the last day at work another 2 more days to go... then I am leaving this place... the road ahead is uncertain... I may have to eat grass... Chinese called "chi chou" but at least I am doing what I like most... I really really do hope that I would get more business coming in once I go in full time.... then we can increase our manpower....

2 Aug to 8 Aug

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3 Aug

Today I nearly quarreled with my service engineer.... it is such a sian day.... sighz

Sometime U dun like to tell other what to do...but if not when things happen all responisbilities fall onto the person in charge but when U tell people or even just remind people about it they take you in like shit.... like as if U dun know anything... but they never realised that if things happen the person in charge takes the entire blame due to his/her no matter who did it....

Sometime I so wish that I dun have to be that person to tell people off... when you are too good to people, too gracious to people, people take you for granted.... this is a dog eat dog world.... but how did this world become like that??? I guess deep down inside everyone would just say.... aiya it is bcos that person this that person that.... but the fingers are all appointing at ourselves.... :(

4 Aug

Today, Boss on MC.... counting down to my last day... another 7 more working days to go.... :P

Sometime I just hope that ah soon(my brother)didn't pass away. So that I can just be the little girl hiding under his care. But reality is very painful. After 2 year that he is gone, I am still having the impact that is as strong as it did on the day he pass away.... Life is already very very hard for everyone but what can be done? nothing... Everyday, you still have to go through the torment that comes along the way... Yah like all like to say.... think about the others who suffered more then U did and you do feel better.... but that doesn't solve any of the problems that you encounter with.... feeling better could only be the cure of the emotional struggles but physical all of us have to go through more...

I don't want to grow up but can I say no? I just want to go with my brother but what will happen to my two old folks? I have only got my eldest brother but is he lending me a hand? Can we actually, pull each other up after ah soon death so to help each other and sympathy with each other and care for each other after ah soon death? some time it is juct a one-sided thinking and hoping that things will turn out well....

See while, I am pointing one fingers at the wrongs of other.... the other 4 fingers are pointed directly at me.... sighz... I am just being a small like girl like everyone thinks I am...

5 Aug

nothing much to say... just sianz

7 Aug

Went to do a show at Zouk, for Jean Paul Gauliter.... under Guerlain makeup group.... met a couple of people but most important saw the guy model who looks like Adam Chen from Channel U.... He remembered me.... so cute... but just couldn't recall where we met... When I told him that we met during the Levi's show at Hereen.... He springs up.... O yah... kekkekekee.... got his name (Brant) but also found out that he's girlfriend was in the show too... sighz... all these good looking guys all got girlfriends..... or some boyfriends.... I think my taste for guys are either attached, married or gays.... kekekkekeee... but nevertheless, I got his mobile no... hahhahaha... dun think I will call... but anyway sure bound to meet him 2 weeks later... hopefully, I will be in the next fashion week sponsired by Guerlain... then I get to see Emily (one of my favourite model) and the rest and also Brant.... hehehehheee... O not forgetting the fun and crazy brunch of makeup Artist whom I work with

8 Aug

woke up at 11 plus... slept at 3pm last nite bcos was watching Joe Cheng on Azio TV.... He is so cute and cool.... I think I really like this cute guy... but too bad he is just a far away (in Taiwan) dream.... I think I kind of like guys would are shy but cool, dun really care but know how to dress, simply aborable and with good height....hahahhaaa I think I am still a kid but a old kid.... :P

July

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19 July
today doing editorial work with Women's world.... don't know which month will it be on.... taking half day on my full time job... sian.... I wish 14 Aug comes in a swift.

20 July
Editorial work for Woman's World is becoming more and more fun.... I like doing the editorial work for them. The two days work will be shown in the Sept issue.... Waiting for the Aug issue to be out so that I can see my work.... :)

21 July
Busy busy busy day in the office... wah wah.... just one day out of office... my desk are packed with stuff to do was busy all he way until now. sian..... sighz... until 14 Aug I will be here and then off to part time job.... yeah yeah

22 July
I am alone in the office... nice day nice weather.... so far so good.... hope everything remind this way.... until end of the day... :)

27 July
today is an extreme boring day.... had a few mistakes in my full time job.... I think I am having mental breakdown.... push myself too hard liao now I feels like break my brain and do nothing
SIANZ!!!!!!!!!

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My First Online Journal

2004-07-16T17:12:00.000+08:00

Kind of like abit interesting... first time using a online journal but it is cute....
bored in the office therefore just type and type and type.... dun know what will come out in the end.

Hope to rush back home and get all my photos loaded onto my website Journal.